Immersing myself in different places and learning from different cultures also helped me ‘un-learn’ many things about myself and the world. It helped open my eyes to how much we are influenced by the culture and society we grow up in and I developed an understanding of the racist and patriarchal systems we are all a part of.
I was able to write my own stories, walk my own path and build trust in my own inner voice - it helped me become more of the person I am meant to be.
I’d never felt more alive.
But nobody ‘got it’ and well-meaning friends and fam would ask:
“When are you going to settle down?” and “What’s your plan?”
And the messages all around me from society was screaming at me that things can’t be done this way.
But I’d always wonder … Why not?
I’ve experienced two massive life altering transformations ( hello Saturn returns!) over my 33 years on this planet thus far.
Both have been born from allowing others to dictate my path or choices instead of following what felt good, and right for me.
The first was after 6 years of full time traveling, all of the constant questions and doubts got under my skin. I started to doubt myself and my path and I returned to Australia and
fell
into
line.
I luckily landed a cool job in the music industry organising concerts and shows taking care of local talent and international A-listers. Rubbing shoulders with celebs, earning lots of money, living next to the beach - it was steeped in privielege and my life looked great on paper
- boxes ticked.
but I knew something was missing. I knew it. I felt it.
(Probably in the same way you can feel that you, too, are destined for more.)
The truth is that it took losing my best-friend in a car accident for me to wake up, switch off auto pilot and start living for me.
I wasn’t sure what I was going to do … but I was sure that the way I was settling was slowing killing my Spirit and things had to change.
So I moved to Costa Rica and spent six months diving into the murky mess that was all of my internal crap. I wanted to reconnect and find my way back to the sense of being truly alive that I’d felt all those years ago.
It was a total shitshow. But a much needed one. I finally got real about my fears and faced up to how I was playing small and wanting to please others. I got back to my wild, untamed, playful essence and as I sat in the tropical heat of my jungle apartment, I had a real awakening…I’d been trying to find a place where I fit inside the box instead of realising I could recreate it to suit me.
All of my life, I’ve been the go-to girl you went to if you were looking for a permission slip to ditch the safe and sure, and go for the wild and true.
So, I studied to become a Certified Coach which gave me the tangible tools I needed to fuse my passions, experience, expertise and guidance to empower others ( like you ) to break free from the bullshit keeping them stuck.